Since today is New Year’s Day and I am thinking about time I thought I would share with you about the time war occurring in my own soul. I had all hopes and aspirations of leaving this coming week to resume my military career and fulfill God’s calling on my life as a Chaplain. To my utter surprise I have learned this last month and a half that God and the United States Navy do not operate on JT (Jay Time). This has been mind boggling and the cause of endless frustrated daydreams.
Part of my anxiety comes from self imposed guilt. There are women and men who have been doing their part for the last five years while I have been attending school. Part of it arises from my eagerness to fulfill God’s calling on my life as a Chaplain. Part of it comes from my ADHD and my three year itch to move (thanks to my previous military experiences). And so in my recent reminder that the world does not operate on JT I have heard God’s small, still voice scream “Just Chill Jay, your time will come.”
GMT (God’s Magnificent Timing, not Greenwich Mean Time), seems so allusive at times to follow. It is easy to look back and say “oh God’s timing is so perfect,” but in the moment my watch is not set to GMT and I wonder why God is not following my schedule. Then I am reminded I am not the one who hung the moon and the stars or Jupiter or Mars… PTL!
I know God has in the air, on the land and sea the women and men needed to do His work where they are. I am thankful for the time I have with my beautiful wife. The church where we serve is full of wonderful people and is a fun place to work and minister. We do expect to receive our orders in the next month or so and leave in May… and so it is time to wait.
As we begin 2008 I pray for Peace on Earth and Good Will to All!--jdw
